farewell

this pic taken when my grandma was still ok. after this, she was badly sick. :(. dis pic was long2..time ago. (before nak pakai braces)
I was so sad and surprised. My grandmother(mum’s side) passed away on the last Friday- during fasting month. She died around 12 o’clock. I knew this news from my mum. She called me when I was driving home from mall and told me that “nenek” gone. I was numb and …… I couldn’t able to continue driving after I heard da news. my mum will definitely very2 sad! I love “nenek” so much. Very the crazy one. “nenek” was so crazy nice and good hearted. But from what happened, there’s sumting behind all these. Good one. She had been suffering b4 and it’s time for her to escape from this. I love her..and sayang her..so much. She always look after her grandsons. She and my late grandpa, love their cucu2..so much. even, they will punished their own children if they ever hit their children. “nenek” always look after my brothers and sister. She love them so much. Very the caring one. But, alhamdulillah, I’ve once had da chance living together with grandpa and grandma. I do love them so much. I miss them so much. I really2 hope that one day I get the chance to hug and kiss them. I miss them so much. only left my “nenek” b4. After she’s gone, I don’t have any “nenek”or “atuk”. But I really2 want to feel having atuks again. I really2 want to salute him. Shake his hand. Help him do housework.
I really2 hope that one day all the pasts come back ..emerge again. So that I can live into da moment with them. I miss the old ones. Cannot continue anymore. My tears start to drop…. Al-fatihah..